Sunday, July 3, 2011

December 12, 2009

Hello family.  I got my flight plans. I leave the 16th of December at about 11 a.m.
I got another memory card for my camera so I’ll send the one I’ve got home and you can have all my crazy pictures.  :-)
My companion and I are still working out differences.  She's still not letting me help her very much with her broken hand and all even though our branch president told her specifically to let me.

Dear Sarah,
Please have patience with your companion.  You may just have to tell yourself that she is "not herself" when she is behaving that way.  She obviously has a lot of things to work out.  Being able to accept help and be a good "receiver" of help takes humility.  There is nothing wrong with you or your willingness to help.  Just tell yourself "like water off a duck's back" and don't take it personally.  You could also talk to the counselor--maybe he/she could explain it better than me.  I've just had a lot of experience with people who have bipolar and also other emotional disorders, and I think sometimes they just can't be helped no matter how badly you want to.  They have to arrive at their own solutions and you have to stand firm in what is right and in your opinion of yourself (not proud, just good self-esteem) so whatever they act like, you will keep your good humor and positive attitude.  I’m behind you!  Keep loving her- even if she won't let you in "close".  Sister Mary Lee Call told me that the best advice she ever got (going into a marriage where some of the former wife's children didn't like her) was "no one can resist constant love".  It may take patience and time, but that is true.
I love you more than I can say!!!
Mom

Ok I’m back.  I'm so glad you're working hard and it makes you happy.  I love you so much!  Michael, I’m so glad you're learning the cello! That's amazing! Thanks for your letter. I enjoyed reading it.  Everybody, you're amazing and I love you all so much!  I think about my family a lot.  I've got the best one ever!   Don't forget me! :-)

Hi everybody! I got my flight plans this week!  Next Monday is the last day I can get mail here I think so don't send the MTC letters for me after that.
Some thoughts from this week:
There are a few phrases that you should never say, especially as a missionary “I can't, I don't want to, I’m too tired, I don't feel like it"  What’s the problem with those?  All of them start with "I".  Not a way to make yourself happy. (That was from Cheryl C. Lant's devotional.)
I wrote another poem, in English this time.

Did Jesus ever say "I can't"
or "I'm not good enough"?
Did Jesus fail to stand up straight
when times were grim and tough?
No, Jesus loved all those around
the rich and also poor
He suffered for our sins and grief
and opened up the door.
This unconditional love we need
for others and themselves
see others as children of our God
and know we are as well.
Try to be like Jesus and
remember who you are
you'll lift others up with you
and God will take you far.

A scripture to go with that: Proverbs 3:5-6.  Trust in the Lord.  He thinks you are special.  Trust in that. :-) SMILE! (Spiritually Minded Is Life Eternal) also ASAP! (Always Say A Prayer)
We practiced knocking doors for one of our Teaching Evaluations this week.  One of the scenarios was a man in a wheelchair who was skeptical, even a bit bitter.  We felt sorry for him and tried to get him to see that there is hope.  He could be happy if he trusted in God.  The teacher asked us after how we could empathize with people like that.  I've never been in a wheelchair or had major health problems.  I've been very blessed, I know that.  So I can't say I personally know exactly how people like that feel.  But I can say that I know someone who does.  Someone who suffered every pain, every sorry, every frustration, every disappointment that we go through so he could be there right beside us and know exactly how to help us.  One of my favorite scriptures is becoming Alma 7:12 "And he will take upon him death, that he may loose the bands of death which bind his people; and he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities"   This gospel gives us hope.  No matter what, there is ALWAYS Christ who is close by (if we choose to keep him in our lives) who knows exactly how we feel.  We are really never alone.  I really feel that especially since my companion isn't exactly the most supportive a lot of the time.  Don't get me wrong, I love her a ton, but we're different.  She's got a short temper but forgives and forgets quickly. My problem is I take tempers to heart.  I can't stand the thought that someone might be mad at me.  I think I scared my district leader this week one of the times I was upset.  It's kind of funny looking back.  He had no idea how to react.    Don't worry about me though.  I can't do this without help, but I know I have help.
God loves us.  He weeps when we weep.  He joys when we joy.  The best thing we can do to make Him happy is to be happy ourselves and help others be happy.
I got to watch the first presidency Christmas devotional.  It was great.  I loved when President Eyering said that the gospel is the only way home.  If we choose the right paths, every day will feel like the best Christmases past.

It has snowed a lot the past few days.  Walking to and from the temple sure was fun.  There are Christmas lights and decorations up around the MTC.  It's great.
Don't forget that everyone's a missionary.  We can all make the world a better place and spread joy and happiness.  That sounded corny, I know.
I love you all! I'm glad that you take time to read this.  Your support means a lot to me.
 Till next week!
       TTFN
         Hermana Sarah Evans

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